Re-return

I have tried to make a return to blogging many times. I always end up dropping the plan either due to lack of topics, lack of imagination and the dominant one, abundance of laziness! Now, at this phase, there is the lack of time but there is lots happening around me all the while that I end up wishing I could put it up on a blog!

Being in a new place and starting all over does bring you close to reality. I had always wanted to evade it! I had always wanted to the independent soul and now I realize how difficult it is. But that is a part I like because suddenly I don't have the n number of people I used to depend on for even the silliest of things I wanted. Now I have to find ways to do it on my own. I would still go back to having it the easy way when I can but most of the times I simply don't have an option! Learn it the harder way is the lesson I get from that!

Also, being away from home and with a random group of people whom you can relate with least is a good teacher on its own. The only time I was away from home before was when I was at bangalore for 6 months and even then I used to rush home every month. Until then I thought I wasn't the homesick kind but turns out I am. I think everybody is at some point. You just need to miss a lot of things you took for granted to realize that. Its a different story when you are so far away that you cant rush home to throw yourself on the bed and cry out loud after a terrible day or a bad exam! Or when you talk to friends from back home and sit reminiscing the good ol' days. There is absolutely no privacy to brood about all this when you share an apartment with three others who cant connect to your misery and don't need to!

Then the culture shock. I did not have any till about 1 month. I did not have any when I saw all that you never get to see when you go for a walk in India! I had it today n it was a shock about how people from my own country behave once here! The foreigners go about their way of life because they are accustomed to it and that is what their culture is! But, India does have a rich culture to take pride in and I wonder how people Americanize in a mere few months. It must just be that I am witnessing the degradation of the Indian culture but it is a shock to me having spent an entire lifetime within the boundaries of our kochu keralam. I don't suggest it is the perfect place but yes it is near to that even with all its biases, narrow mindedness and the like which should be least of our worries!I would love to be in the confines of it anyday.

With this I begin my return and hope it doesn't end with this!but seems like there would be enough fodder to keep it going. Let this be the beginning to another season of complaints and frustration and each with the tag-line I LOVE MY INDIA! Jai hind ;).